Its Wednesday and i was (supposed) to be on holiday but then something came up at school and i needed to go there. So, lazily, i went to school, patiently waiting for "a few" of my "useful" friends at a humpy in my school compound, to help out the teachers with the murals. (actually the teachers aren't doing anything, they are just there to instruct us ) but what matters is that, we had fun doing it, re painting the murals, yeah we totally had fun, (am i right?) the best part of today was, you can also say it as, highlight of the day was the "free food". everyone loves free food, am i right? haha, so we actually had some small repast. Each of us was told to bring our own food (potluck) but i, being the normal me, i forgot about it. however, the teachers actually brought some food (ehem, home made food okay?) it taste delicious, super nutritious (i'm exaggerating about it)

and yes, the painting continues until i felt really really bored.

and..

finally, we successfully finished it (how happy am i)
not anymore until ...
" nisa, can you come on friday, with your friend? the one that hand me her names for the murals? "
that moment, my mind (to be honest) started to form an "O" shape and freaking out to search for reasonable reasons.
" oh ha? uhm, tomorrow? i don't think i can make it, i'll ask her first "
" if you can't come tomorrow, how bout monday? "

i'm so dead
so dead
the two of us
only
doing the murals
in front of the toilet
i'm so dead

so, that is all for today, i hope that those who are having an early holiday now enjoy their holiday as much as i do and stay tuned for more post ( & by the way, i'll be posting on a trip my school held for us, form 3 students, to an amazing place)

adios

we started off as a stranger but now we're ending it as a "soul mate" 

our long journey began on 2011 and has finally coming to an end, anytime.
we've been such a wonderful classmates for three years and after all the problems, happiness that we've been through together, imma need to let you go now. 

this is what we call "Life".

life is full of unpredictable surprises, those that we thought would never happen to us might actually, one day come true, who knows? am i right? 

those people who we don't like might ended up as the one who we need the most

funny isn't ?

yes, but that is life. full of funny and mad surprises that we never ever thought of.

something to change

have you ever just sit down for awhile and think about what your future will be like? just sit and stare and repeatedly thinking about that one dream you would like to be? have you ever had a dilemma on choosing what you wanna be? the risk? 

it feels good you know, to grow up, and explore the entire world but it feels kind of burden when you need to think about the future, in my case, my huge passion for art is a problem.

I was asked to choose which stream to be in next year as i'm going to be sixteen next year. The only thing that i had ever thought i would be in the future was being in the fashion world or art world or the law world.

but the main problem is that, Art stream is not the "first" class in my school. Art is being placed far away~ very far. and that class were only meant for those who don't score well in their exam. i mean like what the f , you can't just say that those humans that were in the art streams are mostly those who aren't well in their studies, i mean like come on, not every artist out there aren't good in their academic. i'm not asking the school to put art stream as the "first" or the "best" stream but at least don't make those art students felt like they aren't qualified enough to live a good life, to lead a comfortable luxurious life.

why can't they see, look at those successful artist. they've made it to the top and earn the most in a few second (not second but weeks or years idk but still they earn a lot), with just ONE freaking art that they called "valuable" "inspirational" "worth the money" . Why can't they just stop for awhile and look at how important art is, yes, science is important as it helps us to lead a healthy life but art makes us happy when we're happy we're healthy, am i right?

so yes, i'm actually in a huge dilemma about next year, a few people says that i shouldn't follow my friends and a few people was like this and that ( if you're fifteen and staying in Malaysia, you should understand and if you're having the same feeling, i feel ya)
I'M SO CONFUSED WORRIED AND SO MANY MY 
they said " you can't just focus on one interest" "life is getting harder, you can't do what you want to do, go the parallel way, do what you hate for the sake of your future" so, what now? 

still confused, frustrated and i'm so dead.

so, if you're reading this, i would like you to leave some opinions before you exit and p/s sorry for the unprofessional english, i sucks at grammar, peace yo!

breathing the fresh air

hi, it has been a long time right ? I kinda miss updating this blog and somehow i once even thought of deleting this because it seems like i'm not using it frequently but hey this blog still exist and yes, i did a few changes yesterday. I changed the blog url and the blog design. 

So, guess what ? PMR is over ! woohoo ! I'm having a one day holiday today so it feels nice you know to just relax after studying too much, am i right? 

uhm, i don't have anything to say today ( i have something to tell you, i've been thinking about it all night long god ) oh yeah, i'll update this blog more frequently from now on MAYBE , i'll try. 

Probably, you'll be seeing lots of arts in my next post or just plain babbles from me or anything but i really really really really wanted to make this blog as an Art blog whereby i upload all my Arts on here but when i re-think about it again, i might as well want to type nonsense as i really love to write so.. we'll see ! 

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