I don't know

" I don't want to stand here and hope for something that i wouldn't get . I don't want to be broken at the end . "

Hi :) I miss updating this blog so much . I've been so busy right now . With the second term test and the upcoming End Year Exam . Hehohe , so what's up yawww ? Any news on your awesome life ? ;) Haha , so yeah , There is nothing GREAT about my life right now , just actually did something that i shouldn't do . and now , I'M HURT TO DEAD . Can i cry ? 

So , let just forget about it and talk about "Dream Life" :) 

Everyone 'must' have their dream life aite ? So do i . I dream to live a life which was full with happiness , sincerity , peace and no war . and i also tend to live a "high-class" life :3 

Seeing my friends and other people life really makes me realize that everyone is DIFFERENT . Some of them live a "rich&wealthy" life where they can get anything they want . But i don't need that kind of life . I just need a life where me and all my cousins are very close to each other without bothering who am i ? am i rich or not ? or even my age . 

For your information , i don't have any siblings and i spend most of my time in my room , which i call 'heaven' . But it was not a great idea to stay in your room for the WHOLE DAY . I'm human too . I need to go out and get some fresh air , talk with people , go riding bicycle , jogging and others . 

BUT , NO ONE EVEN WANT TO BE WITH ME . NO ONE CARES . 

It is kinda complicated you know . Living without friends .

Its just too difficult to be alone in this wide world . Okay , I damn don't need anyone to teach me the meaning of life , but i damn want someone who is strong enough to understand me . 

Do You know the feeling when you really want something but you didn't get it ? 

So so so so so so , the conclusion is , EVERYONE NEED EVERYONE :)